"God loves to use weak people."
That is what I read today...
And how appropriate it is at this time of Lenten Season.
It's so true that usually we deny our weaknesses, defend them, excuse them, hide them and even resent them. When what God wants us to do is to accept them, be content with them and honestly share it with others so that God can use our weakness for his glory.
So in my continuing journey with God, here I am before you accepting, being content and honestly sharing my weakness.
1. I hate waking up early. I really do. Sometimes even when I purposely want to wake up early in the morning, I end up waking at 9am, 10am or even worse 11am! And because I know I have a hard time waking up early, when I have a very important task to do or a function coming up or an early morning meeting.. I stay up as late as I can so I don't have to sleep at all... haha.. talk about solutions huh... (Today however, for some reason God woke me up at 3am and won't let me go back to sleep.. So here I am writing this entry at 5am..)
2. I am not a "home" person.. something my mother's not so happy about.. I don't normally cook, clean, do the laundry, iron clothes etc.... haaysss... its just not my normal self and I am sometimes ashamed of it. I usually defend it by saying, I work all the time and don't have time for it... when in truth it's really just my weakness. Because I'm sure there are tons of people in the world who can work hard and do home chores too..
3. I am equally guilty of not working out my relationship with my ex-husband. Now, here's something that's hard to admit, be content with and honestly share with others. But yes, ladies and gentlemen, i am equally responsible for it. My short lived marriage (barely one year) has been a big bump in my head that made me realize that relationships take a WHOLE LOT OF WORK! I've realized how selfish I can be and how impatient and unforgiving I can be too. I've made myself look good to my family and friends by telling them all the ugly things about my ex.. when in truth, i was equally ugly myself.
In my weakness I ask God what his purpose is.
In my weakness I lift up my hands and surrender.
In my weakness I shut up and listen...
In my weakness I allow God to work through me.
In my weakness, I manage to put a smile in my heart.. cause I know I'm in good hands... (with metrobank.. haha.. joke) With God of course. :)
If you are reading this, I hope it has caused you to think about how God is going to use your weakness for his glory too..
Maybe next time I'll write about how my honesty has helped others too.
This is it for now.. till my next entry!
