I wish the world would stop.

Sometimes I wish the world would just stop.
I wish my world would take a halt so I can have time to breathe..
So I can have time to cry..
So I can completely mourn over my loss..
So I can see what else is still here..
So I can enjoy some time alone..
So I can be ok.

But our worlds don't stop.
It just keeps going.... and going... and going...
The world moves.. and in my moments of grief, I'm not sure if I can move with it.
But I have to...

So I keep at it..
Fake it til I make it.

Sometimes we think its easier to deny sadness or grief..
For the most part where you drown yourself in busy-ness--its easy.. until it hits you..
And you realize, you're not ok... I'm not ok..
I am grieving.

As my friend tells me.. it comes in waves..
I hope the next wave doesn't hit as bad.

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Philippians 4:6-7
(MSG)
Don't fret or worry.
Instead of worrying, pray.
Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns.
Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.